apparently when I was making my playlist I wasn’t content with the sad so I had to write something to make me sad too
"I can’t be what you want me to be Paul."
Jacob’s eyes went everywhere but forward, averting his gaze. His eye settled on a fixed spot on the window sill where he could see the faint outline of where a potted plant must have been.
"And what exactly would that be?"
Paul searched his face for an expression. Something to tell him what he was feeling cause god knows Jacob would never tell him what was on his mind. At least not now. It was different when it was just the two of them. When they would spend all of their time together pretending, or least that’s how it all started. Paul would tell himself over and over that that’s all it was but he was tired of the lies. He was tired of Jacob lying to himself.
Jacob felt Paul motion forward towards him, so he took a step back. Distance was his friend. Maybe it would help him drive home his point.
"In love with you."